9PM – Meeting
10PM- still no msg to read.. I never felt the need to send her a message
1045PM – composing a text message. End of meeting
11:15 – silence shatterred.. New email in html. Finally??
11:20 – now im thinking…… Kristina is messing with my head how is this happening.. The entity itself is disturbing, I tried to get my ass back to work which lead me into the confides of the smoking room alone.. Perfect timing. Time to contemplate, earphones blaring, bash head with a couple of grundges.. Is this an act of cowardness towards the opposite sex? Was this an argument/fight?.. A psy war? Mind games perhaps? But the email was different. For the past 2.75 days I was a master of the behavior I solely regret. The collision is over, on the email, she thanked me for everything there are but no goodbyes.. I don’t know how to react and please myself. Should I resume this insanity or get my life back together..maybe thinking over this.. She is my life.. This insanity will resume.. Tonight it continues & hell I don’t care whoever I ran into. If this will be my train wreck then let it be one. I hope this works.. And she never said goodbye..